Entry #2

About the lack of music...

2017-09-10 01:21:16 by Kyron20

Hey everyone. Everyone that's still here at least. I thought I'd give you all a bit of an update as to where I am with music.

The first reason is my schedule, which I'm dreading terribly at the moment. School has started back up again, and so has just about everything else. This school year will probably be my hardest, especially combined with my marching band schedule. I'll lay that out for you guys just so you can get an idea of what I'm dealing with.

Mon-Wed: School 7:30-2:30, Practice 3:00-6:15, Homework 7:00- Whenever I finish, Bed

Thurs: School 7:30-2:30, Homework: 3:00-6:00 Practice 6:00-10:30, Homework 11:00- Whenever I finish, Bed

Fri: School 8:30-2:30, (Football Game: 5:00-10:00), Raise $ for Marching Band, Free time: Whenever I get the chance

Sat: Marching Band Competition: (5:30 AM - 8:00 AM) - (10:30 AM - 11:00 PM)

Sun: Church 9:00-12:00, Free time/Homework

Up until about the second week of November, my schedule will be as listed. After that, marching band will be cut out and homework time will be cut in more than half. In December I lose more free time for drumline up until about the second week of April. Then in May marching band starts up again. Don't get me wrong, I (sometimes) enjoy MB/Drumline, but it gets to a point where I can hardly deal with it anymore. For example, in October there are ~3 days where MB doesn't meet. Today was my last "free" Saturday until November.

So... yeah. I'm absolutely dreading the next month and a half. I seriously doubt I'll be releasing anything for a while.

A smaller reason is that I can't write lyrics for the life of me. (Yeah, *spoilers.* Lyrics are coming maybe.)

The next reason is that I'm dealing with a lot of mental challenges regarding music. Sure, there's writer's block, but that happens to everyone. I just feel like I'm going crazy over what to make. As you all probably know, I love upbeat melodic house. It's one of my favorite things, and if I could make it all the time, I'd be the happiest person alive. Unfortunately, I've had no inspiration dealing with melodic house for about a year now. If you hadn't been able to come up with something in your favorite genre for a year, I'm sure you can imagine how much that kills me.

Another challenge is knowing what to make. I know what you guys probably want, but I'm unable to make that at the moment. So now the question is, what else do you guys want? What will you like? What will you not? What do I want? I feel like my style is shifting in a new direction. I'm happy with what I've been making, but at the same time it's not the same. It's less melody focused, less energetic, less happy and upbeat. I don't know if I want that. If I have to give up my old style for more inspiration, should I do it? I feel like in the electronic production community it's a war between music that's simple, yet satisfying and music that's complex, and not always very satisfying. For example, chord progressions. You can either use a simple and probably generic chord progression that most people love, or you could use some abstract 17-chord chord progression with all sorts of clashing notes and multiple octaves that a minority of people can pick apart and appreciate. As you all know, I tend to gravitate to more simple chord progressions. However, I'll talk about this later, as this post isn't about music conventions.

Lastly, I'm scared. I have a habit of picking up hobbies and developing them for a year or two, then completely throwing them out the window. As unhealthy as that sounds, I can't really help it. One year I'll be interested in Rubik's cubes (2014-2015) and then one day I'll consider it boring and not pick one up again for a long time. I'm scared because of all the hobbies I've had, this is one I can turn into a career, one I really enjoy, and one that can have an impact on other people. I don't want to lose it, but I feel like if I'm going to, it's going to be soon. I'm not saying it's going to happen, but I'm giving a warning that it's a possibility.

As much as I like to think you guys like me, I understand that I'm in no way anyone's favorite producer, nor am I important to any of you. I just thought I'd let you guys know that I care about you guys. I know that my lack of music really doesn't affect you at all, but it kills me to think that I'm not getting music out to you guys. That's really my whole reason to share. I understand I'm not anything special, so please, don't treat me like I am. I get the feeling nobody will read this through, which is fine. I just need to get this stuff off my chest.

I know, I know. Drama. "My life is so hard." To be honest, it's really not. These are just some things I've had on my mind that I think you guys deserve to know. I promise, there is good stuff coming. Stuff that I think is going to be big, for me at least. I just hope you guys get to hear it eventually.

All that being said, thanks for sticking with me guys. I'll find a way to make it up to the people who've stayed with me.






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2017-09-22 17:32:25

Hope to listen to your new releases